New Job, New Phone, New Roomates

Weeeeeeeeeeeee
ACS Working @ Boost mobile. Took my notice and I walked out.
LaserCare Inc. hired me for more money and better benefits, with room for advancement!
Start Monday......

I said Goodbye to Cricket....
Ported my number to Boost Mobile.
50 Unlimited plan is AWESOME!!
Phone rocks!
Love the web!

The Family has officially been here a months now...
and they are cool...
The child is a bit spoiled and always wants to play.
but they keep the house clean and ride us all on helping .

Mom and Dad should be in the weekend. planned to go to the zoo but welcome to Portland.
It's raining! No "X" that.

working on getting twitter/loopt working on my phone so i can post mobile..
ill update if i can...

i thank god for you all and everything youve given me.

Restraint

"Everything is good in moderation"

I've been faced with this fact threw all my addictions.
When I have followed one thing over and over again that it becomes all I know or think on.

It happens with drugs, EASILY.
It happens with sex, when your body craves the touch of another or yourself.
It happens with love, when you truly follow your heart off that cliff your head tells you not to.

In every pleasure there is a limit.
One that you must implement yourself.
One that only you can truly enforce.

What is that limit? How do you know when to say 'when'?
A persons limit only they can find for themselves. What reaches they can stretch themselves around is only within their knowledge and motivation to change.

I have basic limits that I believe are key boundaries that we cross.

1) When something has become so strong you risk harm to yourself or the people around you.
(Harm being emotional, physical, financial or any other non-productive act)

2) When what your doing must be hidden from those who care about you.
(Anything your not happy to tell your family about should not be considered productive)

These lines should never be crossed when dealing with anything in excess.
For when these lines are broken you head down a path of self-destruction.

Remember always to check yourself
or have close friends to check you for you.
but even then open lines of communication is needed.

Change

Change happens.
There is nothing you can do to stop it.
The only reasonable thing is to learn to adapt.
We are what we are today by adapting to our climate and surroundings.
We grow by learning new experiences, emotions and troubles.
By surviving threw them , Overcoming them and stretching ourselves to a new beginning.

"When the Lord closes a door, He always opens a window."
You just need to learn when to jump out of the burning building.
By learning that fire is hot and will burn you.

It seems many these days have problems with change, fear it to an extent. This I can understand but it should never rule a decision made for your benefit. A child will never want to give up his precious blanket. Yet, He must, to learn to grow and become the person God had in mind.

""For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord,
"Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future...""
- Jeremiah 29:11 NIV

God is ALWAYS listening! He is a schemer, for his fingers and works are in everything around us. From the birds chirping in a open field to your deepest darkest nightmares.
Often I turn to God during times of change where the future is so unknown to me I could pee myself. For he is the supply of infinite strength, wisdom to guide the forever lost and love beyond comprehension.

TRUST IN GOD

Its on your money for fuck sake...
I know you all love money

Friendship

What is a Friendship?
What is needed?
Who are my 'true' friends?

These are all questions I see so many asking themselves these day as they realize most people are not to be trust and you need to watch you own ass at all time. I myself am victim to this, Loosing my most recent job; betrayed by a fellow workmate with no real intention but malicious mayhem. Just to name the most recent...

What is a Friendship?
An establishment of trust and caring for another person where you honestly care for the better good of that person, share many interests and make each other happy enough to satisfy 'friendship' standards. The key word being TRUST.

What is needed?
Communication, Open lines of communication breeds trust. Want, You just can't force anything upon another person if its not wanted. Time, Trust is a product of communication and time. Love, Without love for another a friend could never be more then acquaintance when a true friend should be family.

Who are my TRUE friends?
This question everyone must figure out for themselves.
If you read this you are most likely mine!
You will always be a friend to God, If you accept his friendship or not.
I will leave you all on a quote from MY friend.

"U r a cape when I want to fly, a tent when I want a fort, a blanket when I want to cuddle up, and a tissue when I need to cry."

Thank You

Stressen and Relief

Today for some reason, I just have had a lack of energy. Feeling down, not on any specific subject or hovering on any dark ideas, just drained.

I have not had any bad news, honestly, all I've had is good news. On the job front Interviews are continuously being scheduled and attended. Its just time now.

I have someone in my life, helping me reestablish faith. Faith in myself and in other people, and most importantly in God. I thank this person from the bottom of my heart for leading me back.

I've spent allot of time thinking today, about why and how and what should be done. I've spent even more time praying.

Today God pulled me threw some dull and draining times. For he is always listening when others turn away or have not the time.

I thank God for always being here even when I don't recognize him hiding in some dark corner.
Hes ALWAYS there!

I am Aircrew

Angels exist. The Navy makes them, and its factory is in Florida. Navy angels wear green flight suits and snug-fitting flight helmets that leave little room for halos or even fluffy white feathers. These guardian angels have faithfully stood watch over aviation crews, passengers, aircraft and cargo since the dawn of naval aviation. Yet they go mostly unnoticed among the rest of the fleet, set by the gold wings pinned on their chests with the letters “AC” branded in the center. The letters stand for “air crew,” and earning one of the rare gold enlisted pins is one of the toughest qualifications in the fleet.

Officially known as the Naval Air Crew Candidate School (NACCS), Naval Air Station (NAS) Pensacola, Fla., it’s a duty station that is easily confused as a little slice of heaven with mostly year-around sunbathing weather. But don’t let the vacation-like setting fool you; NACCS is anything but a vacation for air crew candidates.

“Boot camp physical training might prepare you for duty in the Navy, but it doesn’t prepare you for air crew school,” said Air Crew Candidate, Airman Apprentice William Joseph Hamilton.

Just to earn the right to attempt air crew school is a physical and mental challenge. Worthy candidates, all volunteers, must be in great physical shape and be a strong enough swimmer to pass a second-class swim test during boot camp. They must pass the Navy’s physical fitness assessment (PFA) with a “satisfactory-medium” in all categories for their sex and age, and pass a flight physical prior to setting foot on the air crew school’s quarterdeck.

Air crew duty isn’t for everyone. Sailors can and do submit a drop on request at any point during the high-risk air crew training process. Stiff physical, mental and even emotional obstacles weed out anyone who can’t handle whatever is thrown their way.

“We can’t just throw any enlisted guy into an aircraft and expect him to contribute to the mission,” said Master Chief Aviation Warfare Systems Operator Kenneth J. Ellenburg, NACCS Master Chief Petty Officer in charge of training. “Flying Navy isn’t anything like flying on an airline. There’s a lot for air crew personnel to do during a flight.”

Air crew missions vary depending on the type of aircraft they are assigned to and that aircraft’s tasking. Navy aircraft move Sailors and mail, engage targets, conduct surveillance, direct battles, hunt submarines and perform other tasks the Navy deems necessary.

Air crew duties during these flights can include maintenance of airborne electronic, mechanical and ordnance delivery systems; operating airborne electronic equipment; performing tactical duties as flight engineers, load masters, analysts and reel operators on Take Charge and Move Out (TACAMO) aircraft; operating airborne mine countermeasures equipment, or crew served weapons; and serving as flight communications operators, in-flight medical technicians or even flight attendants.

“Air crew makes the mission successful,” said Ellenburg. “The pilots just get you there.”

Sometimes, just getting there–and back –is the most difficult part of the mission.

By design, just about every plane and helicopter device air crew candidates climb aboard at NACCS will crash during training. Instructors waste little time in snapping their student’s attention into the harsh reality of naval aviation, where mishaps can and do happen.

Training contraptions eerily named after aviator nightmares, like the “helicopter dunker,” a full-scale mock-up of a helicopter cabin, are used by instructors to “crash” candidates into the water. Without warning, instructors send the dunker plummeting to the drink, rotating the cabin as it sinks. Students are required to egress from their seats through specific pathways once while wearing their flight gear, then again with black-out goggles.

Like many Navy jobs, air crew survival centers on attention to detail and following procedures, which are drilled into candidates’ heads until they’re instinctive. “You don’t carry a checklist with you when you hit the water,” said Ellenburg. “You have to be mentally tough enough to do the right things, because you’ll only get one chance if disaster finds you.”

Getting out of the aircraft is only part of surviving a mishap at sea. Air crew personnel must avoid drowning while dodging sinking aircraft, possible fires, enemy aggression, heat, cold, waves, exhaustion, dehydration and other obstacles between them and any rescue attempts the Navy sends their way. NACCS covers all of it–in four weeks.

Air crew personnel are trained to take responsibility for their entire crew, passengers and any salvageable cargo, so it should come as no surprise that the two most prominent things at air crew school are physical fitness and swimming–lots of swimming. Candidates must pass nine levels of water survival training to graduate from NACCS. “Most of the time, when you end up in the water as an aviator, it’s because something went terribly wrong,” said Water Survival Instructor Aviation Boatswain’s Mate (Equipment) 2nd Class Cory Smith. “We give students the confidence they’ll need to survive a mishap in the water. We make them understand that they have to get deep and swim away from the ship (or aircraft) to avoid falling debris, fire, explosions and other Sailors. It matters how you jump into the water. Jump the wrong way and you have to try to survive with a broken leg, dislocated shoulder, or worse.”

According to Smith, it can take up to 15 minutes for a rescue helicopter to get off the deck, so surviving a crash means you have to make it to a life raft or tread water until help arrives. Air crew graduates leave knowing drown-proofing techniques like treading water, floating and making it to that life raft, even if it’s a mile swim away while wearing between 45 and 50 lbs. of flight gear.

“I learned a lot at water survival,” said Airman Recruit Avery Layton. She considered the tread and float test (WS-4) the toughest part of her training at air crew school. “I got over being scared to put my face in the water here because I did it so many times. And another thing … wearing boots doesn’t give you more traction in the water.”

Air crew personnel are entrusted to do more than complete their mission. They’re expected to serve as watchdogs for the rest of the crew and the aircraft to prevent mishaps. One of the things air crew look for are symptoms of hypoxia.

Hypoxia is a physical condition the body experiences when blood oxygen levels fall below 87 percent, and typically begin at altitudes above 10,000 feet. Low levels of oxygen cause slowed motor skills and impaired judgment. Candidates go through a low-pressure chamber, where aviation physiological technicians like Hospital Corpsman 2nd Class Mark Morin educate the airborne-bound Sailors.

“Even though the air crew aren’t actually flying the aircraft,” Morin said, “they need to understand the signs of hypoxia, because if a pilot has hypoxia, everyone aboard that plane deals with his fate.”

Being on the ground doesn’t release air crewmen from their duties. When not flying, they perform duties such as aircraft maintenance, operations, line division, communications and other duties associated with their source ratings.

The air crew warfare designation is one of the toughest pins to earn. The Navy plans to keep it that way because of the reputation that the air crew wings have earned in the aviation community.

“The air crew training program’s reputation has allowed pilots to trust air crews without question,” said Ellenburg. “The pilots never second guess the enlisted air crew’s decisions.”

The rewards for graduating from NACCS are brief, with a hearty handshake and a push onward to the next challenge in the four-part gauntlet that is the air crew qualification process. In addition to passing NACCS, candidates must conquer their source rating “A” school, Survival Evasion Resistance and Escape training and finally qualify on their specific platform at a fleet replacement squadron. Then, and only then do these guardian angels earn their wings and some extra cash with career enlisted flyer incentive pay.

But that daydream remains fuzzy for candidates back at NACCS, who are more focused on not swallowing more than their fair share of water, completing the dreaded mile swim and escaping the chaotic helicopter dunker, than on the day they get their wings, the holy grail of these guardian angels

People

People have the ability to connect with one another.
Some people more then others.
Some people attract different types of people, while others repel.
Its interesting to see how people's pathways often intercept, intertwine or violently collide.

I believe all of this is the product of free will.
The ability to make a choice.
Although 'God' or possibly just plain chaos could have a huge part in how some events take place, Free will dictates whether those events are recognized, trashed or cherished.

Republican or Democrat
Woman or Man
Christian or Pagan
Rich or Poor

We are all effected by this universal rule.

For me?
I don't fight life anymore, It is a struggle at which you will not come out alive.
I tend to 'go with the flow' as long as its not in a negative direction.
For some this life is alluring others offensive.
But I am just like all of you, I seek happiness and nothing more.
Its just my version of bliss might be different then yours.